i don’t mind
i’ve been trying to admit my wrongs since i learned to rhyme
and maybe in time
you could learn to love me anyway
just give me a sign

my closest friends
they're all telling me i need to give up staying inside
and that if waking up
is the hardest part of every day
then harder i should try

but what that wager states
is that i stand to gain only by living a lie
and is any prize so great
that it is worth surrendering this sorrow of mine?

so i left them all behind
i moved back home and tried to hide my jaded side
and i was resigned
to lead a life of sighs and ever faded highs

but on the way to work i see old friends
and they pretend they don't recognise me
and every time i set my life to verse
i hide the worst of my anxieties

but that's no surprise for me
now i’m too involved in the lies i’ve told to act decisively
and this hole inside of me
it compromises every goal friends had in guiding me

and god i know it's not too late
but i can’t move past my mistakes no i’ve no control
no steady hands to steer my fate
no open arms to spread this weight
and i feel so alone

now i’m done with education
i'll stumble round without direction until i rot
still drinking cus i cannot stop
still trying to be someone i am not

so i am thinking the best way
of getting myself through each day is to pray for rain
because rain can call off all my plans
and the rain it truly understands all my pain

so i pray that rain will end the day
and that this pain'll go away

maybe the rain will wash away
the plans i never should've made

only the rain will end the day
i pray this pain will go away
and maybe then i'll be ok